I just don’t know what to do.  I always dwell into the past.  The PAST has already PASSED! But I keep on thinking about it.  Everyone has told me to just forget about it, and just think about right now. UGHHH!

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I always wanted to be that special girl.  I know I am right now at the moment.  But it’s really hard not to think about all the other “special girls” out there before me. How did he treat them?  Just like me? Am I just gonna end up like them too? Sometimes just thinking about it makes me sad because it’s my first relationship, but its not his.  I think I’m just scared.

Nobody’s perfect.  Yes, I know that.  You have to forgive another person’s past. It’s hard, but if you want to further a relationship you have to.  We made mistakes, but we learn.  We change into a completely better person for your significant other. “Love to be real, it must cost—it must HURT—it must empty us of self.” - Mother Teresa

Even so, all i know is that im really happy right now, and he treats me well— he’s very sweet and RESPECTFUL. :) God forgives all, no matter what you have done.  I think I should do the same.  It’s harder than you think—easier said than done.  This is what i have realized the past couple days.  I’m not perfect.  He’s not perfect. We have to learn how to love each other for who we are—even our imperfections. 

“We can draw lessons from the past, but we cannot live in it. Your life is not in what you have done, but in what you will do today, tomorrow, and forever.”

-bd:

It just happens. Our emotions take over, and when it finally hits us, sometimes it is too late.